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Monday, March 19th, 2012
9:43 am
Sometimes I get such a bubbling sense of happiness inside of me that I nearly burst out with laughter. I love daydreaming about our wedding day, about holding David's hands, about getting eye-level with the kids to say my vows to them. I love daydreaming about our future home with touches of lace and old English countryside prints and my favorite tea towels. I love daydreaming about our honeymoon, passing all of the sheep in the Scottish countryside, drinking tea first thing in the morning, buying tons of Scottish wool to make baby clothes. I love daydreaming about my swollen stomach, laying in bed and reading Beatrix Potter to my little boy or girl, decorating a baby nursery with old family pictures. I love daydreaming about being a professional writer AND a professional actress, spending my days writing features and stories and spending my nights on stage in some incredible Agatha Christie or Arthur Miller production.

I love being this happy and content, this excited about the future and my life.

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Saturday, February 4th, 2012
10:19 am
We had opening night of Deadliest Sketch last night and oh my God, it was fabulous.

It feels SO good to do something that is 100% mine and that I am 100% in love with (also, I'm pretty damn good at it).


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Wednesday, November 16th, 2011
7:48 am
Just sent my agent an email apologizing for being so out of the loop and telling him the truth: That I was lazy and I was not putting in any effort when it came to my career, but I'm beyond ready to change all of that. I asked him for advice on getting back into the game and what I can do to polish my talents and attributes.

Crossing fingers that it works!

It's time to make some changes. And my career is #1. I have a man, I have two gorgeous kids and my relationship with them is flawless, I have my sister's wedding out of the way and I have mine in full-on planning mode. Time to tackle some other dreams.

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Tuesday, November 15th, 2011
5:41 pm - nice day for a white wedding
So my sister is now MARRIED. Isn't that so weird? I totally have a brother-in-law now (a brother-in-law I once hated, but c'est la vie)!

Her wedding was Saturday and despite all of the drama, stress and guilt leading up to it, we had a pretty wonderful day. I blubbered through the entire wedding march, read a poem of Jamie's during the ceremony and then cried so hard during my toast that I couldn't even finish it. Seriously, all I got out was "And we watched all these cheesy romantic 80s chick flicks growing up and we . . . well, when we were 16 and 17, we didn't have that perfect relationship and now..." CUE THE TEARS. Dad had to finish it for me by offering up "but you do know!" and I just cried and cried and Jamie cried and we hugged and kept saying I LOVE YOU over and over like a bunch of drunk coeds.

I've never been all that great with change and seeing her name go from Jamie Darby to Jamie Roy on Facebook put a huge pang in my chest, but for the first time I'm realizing what it means to be happy that someone else is happy. I know that sounds weird, I mean it's not like I've been dreaming about disaster and strife to others, but to honestly put aside any of my own fears or worries or feelings and just be completely 100% happy because SHE'S happy? That's a new thing for me and I really, truly love it.

So many funny things happened over the course of the day, too much to type now (I'm about to cook up some homemade chicken noodle soup), but one of the funniest was when Jamie was crying that morning over the damn wedding cake and as I came down the hall, Chloe met me in the kitchen and said "She's having a meltdown."

And one of the sweetest moments? When I was crying like a giant bridesmaid baby and Trey saw me sobbing and came up, leaning his entire body into one of my legs.

I leave you with this picture, a perfect representation of my familyCollapse )

current mood: inspired

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Tuesday, November 8th, 2011
4:21 pm
Guess who got up and worked out this morning?

Guess who's gonna do it again tomorrow because it felt so FUCKING GOOD?

Guess who also ate like six mini Reese's cups and a mini Mr. Goodbar? Oh well. I'm no saint.

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Saturday, June 4th, 2011
9:16 am
i am my biggest obstacle.

that's scary. i am the reason that everything i've ever wanted to do or be is still stuck in the whirring imagination housed in my brain.

i have got to stop. because the only thing holding me back is ME.

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Wednesday, May 11th, 2011
1:36 pm - happy go lucky playlist
i want to create a new playlist, but my itunes is being a whore! it keeps saying it can't connect with the itunes store. i probably need to update it, but i haaaaate updating itunes. mainly because i have to do it every two days. sheesh.

anyway! here's the playlist i want to create/burn on a cd:

1. m79 - vampire weekend
2. hollywood is dead - michael bublé
3. i do - colbie caillat
4. solsbury hill - peter gabriel
5. you can call me al - paul simon
6. new slang - the shins
7. suddenly i see - kt tunstall
8. king of anything - sara bareilles
9. half of my heart - john mayer with taylor swift
10. love song - sara bareilles
11. beautiful day - u2

that's all i've got right now! any other suggestions? i want to keep in this same style of music, but i don't know how to describe it other than it makes me happy, makes me want to conquer the world, makes me bounce while i'm driving, makes me laugh out loud because i'm so full of joy. so yeah. songs that do that to you are welcome! <3

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Thursday, May 5th, 2011
12:24 pm - ahem!
formerly describe plus a million other journals back when i was sixteen and had nothing to do!

but i'm back! and taking new friends!

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